“You will discover there is no little “me” in the center occupying the space. Without this me in the center, there is nobody to judge whether a given experience is the right experience or whether it is spiritual. Do you get it? This is it!” Adyashanti
Up until about a year ago, I would have defined part of my false personal identity to be a “spiritual seeker”. For most of this life, I’ve been searching for meaning, truth, spirit, God. I thought I found it in church as a teen. I thought I found it in kundalini yoga as a young adult. Now, I know that what I’ve been searching for has been here all along in the wide open space, disguised as everything.
The above quote comes from the chapter titled Spiritual Addiction in Adyashanti’s Emptiness Dancing. He’s referring to the center of Everything – all existence – which is ultimately empty. The “me” wants to think that it is at the center. It wants to seek and find the truth in everything except what is right here now because this can’t possibly be It. But in Reality, there is no one to do the seeking. There is nothing to seek. The seeker and the sought are already One, spontaneously arising together right now.
Chögyam Trungpa also wrote a book titled Spiritual Materialism, which I read many years ago and at the time adamantly believed the thought, “I see that in others but that is not me!” But it totally was. I didn’t really get it. I was seeking, striving, collecting, devouring anything that I thought would tell me what the Truth of existence really is, when it was actually here all along.
This moment – this is it. This is all there is. It is empty. It is full. It is silent at the core. It is robust with potential. It is nothing. It is everything. It just is. Whole and complete as it is. And it is who we really are too. All as One.