“If someone were to ask me, ‘Adya, what is it that you’ve found that you’re meant to be, that you’re meant to do, that spirit is really meant to accomplish through you?’ The most I could say is, ‘This moment is it. This moment is it, and in the next moment, that’s it. And in the next moment, that’s it.’” Adyashanti in Falling into Grace
Today is my BEarth day, the day Divine Being manifested into a human form which my parents named Veronica. In previous years, I would take the day to diligently make lists of future goals and reflect on what I thought was my purpose in life. It was actually quite stressful. The mission of self-improvement was really a subtle form of aggression toward myself, thinking that life as it was in the moment wasn’t good enough, that I wasn’t good enough. But not this year. Since studying the teachings of Adyashanti, I’ve realized there is no future to plan for and no past to dwell on, as time doesn’t really exist. Right now is all there is…ever. And since the story of “me” is completely made up, how can an illusion, a dream, be good enough or not enough? It’s absurd. The “I” in the mind literally has no control over anything. The human will is a complete imaginary fabrication.
Instead of pretending this illusory “I” has any control over how life will unfold, now I’m saying a simple and sincere YES to life just as it is right now. Letting go into the flow of ALL life, which is spontaneously arising moment-by-moment. Allowing the Divine energy that creates all form to navigate the flow of life, because the truth is, it is anyway. I need do nothing. There is no destiny, no predetermination, no future. Therefore, no need for worry or fear. What a relief.
Since this moment is the only moment that ever exists, it is my only purpose, and yours: that which is unfolding now. All beliefs, concepts, and ideals about what your life “should” be or where you think you are going, are only an image in the mind. Wouldn’t it feel so much better to stop trying to fill every moment in anticipation of being somewhere else, and arrive fully where you are now? Accepting. Relaxing. There’s nowhere else to go and no one better to be than what is here, right now. Every moment is new and fresh. Sacred and nothing. Here, then gone.
“When you get out of the driver’s seat, you find that life can drive itself, that actually life has always been driving itself. When you get out of the driver’s seat, it can drive itself so much easier – it can flow in ways you never imagined. Life becomes almost magical. The illusion of ‘me’ is no longer in the way. Life begins to flow, and you never know where it will take you.” Adyashanti